Zucchinni bread with pineapple and pina colada mixture, eggplant parmesan, lemon curd, tomato sauce – when I need think over big and little things, sometimes I get quiet – and I write. Sometimes I get quiet – and I cook.
Right now I’m in the middle of a big quiet and I’m cooking my way through it. For some reason, when I cook, in “get in the zone” and the little foxes just fall away, my mind unclutters itself. In the falling away and the uncluttering, I can hear Him – and I can see me how He sees me.
Maybe, right now, it’s the white noise sifting out the dross from the gold, the chaff from the wheat in my life. Maybe it’s the persecution of Christian’s in tragic ways – and the cries of their faith for God to save them – and my spirit hearing their cry – and, because of my faith, my obligation to my Lord to join in in prayer – or whatever else He calls me to do.
Right now, I’m cooking my way through something – I’m not sure what it is. I just wanted you to know – I’m not gone. I haven’t closed shop. I have an arm’s length of things I want to write about – but right now – I’m cooking my way through it – because right now I hear Him better cutting some dill, thyme and rosemary, blanching my better boy and German pink tomatoes, salting my eggplant to sit for 20 minutes to lose some bitterness, letting the food processor grate my zuchinni, cracking eggs, boiling eggs.
Some of the recipes are changing – and they needed that. Some recipes, like the lemon curd, stayed the same. Maybe that’s what this is all about: coming change – for the better – and things worth keeping.
I don’t know who’s going to eat all this – but God’s not surprised. He knows what I need to work through, why and how.
“I wish it need not have happened in my time,” said Frodo.
“So do I,” said Gandalf, “and so do all who live to see such times. But that is not for them to decide. All we have to decide is what to do with the time that is given us” (Tolkien, The Lord of the Rings)