For over a year, I worked on the Tuscany Shawl. The first set of the 16 row pattern wasn’t wear I realized I had a problem. It was the second set. For over 12 months, I kept pulling out the stitches and starting over.
Something wasn’t right – but I didn’t know what.
I needed to be around someone who could help me – but where we had moved, I just didn’t have that knitting support system. All the knitters were anywhere from 40 minutes to an hour to 3 hours away.
One day, though, the timing was right – I had my knitting, my directions – and someone to help me understand what the directions were telling me.
It was knitting 3 together where I needed to slip one knit wise, knit 2 together and pass the slipped stitch over the knit 2 together stitch I had just done.
You see, in the pattern, the first 8 rows were a knit 3 together; the last 8 rows were the slip one knit wise, knit 2 together.
I hadn’t paid close enough attention to what the words were saying.
Once I realized my error, it took me just a few months to finish the linen Tuscany Shawl.
Paying Attention to the words in the directions, believing what they were saying – trusting they would lead me true
I wouldn’t have learned that if I had given up.
All the directions, measurement numbers and words – so many words in the directions – overwhelmed me.
I needed someone who knew what those words meant to help get me started. When my mother-in-law(MIL) came to wait with me for grand-baby girl’s arrival – and grandbaby girl decided to arrive late – my MIL stood with me when I started my quilt, helped me believe what the words said in the direction, helped me walk out those directions until I was comfortable enough to go on my own.
Paying Attention to the words in the directions, believing what they were saying – trusting they would lead me true.
Living life believing God’s word has been a lot like my knitting and quilting experiences.
Hearing new things (like picking up a new project) a lot of times hangs in limbo until I become courageous enough to face it – like the first time I heard instant salvation was for me – not a judgement day thing – or like the Baptism of the Holy Spirit.
God is not man, one given to lies,
and not a son of man changing his mind.
Does he speak and not do what he says?”(Numbers 23:19, The Message)
Reading the words in the bible – believing they were for me, too – not just Abraham, Peter, John, Mary, Ruth and Paul, Hannah, Sarah. They were stories that said, “This is for you, too” – the healing, the blessing, the promises, the protection, the life plans, the love, the relationship.
I didn’t have to be special for the words to belong to me, too. I just had to be His – and the words said I was so His that He created all the days of my life, planned for me before I was even born. He even had contingency plans.
“And we also thank God constantly for this, that when you received the word of God, which you heard from us, you accepted it not as the word of men but as what it really is, the word of God, which is at work in you believers” (1 Thess 2:13)
Trusting the Words takes practice. I think that’s a kicked-out-of-the-garden-of-Eden-result – that we have to learn how to trust Him.
I learned that – I think, one trust issue at a time. First, just a cautious nudging, this a surer pushing until one day I so trusted Him that I just thrust all my stack of me. Like the piles of paper that somehow accumulate in my kitchen, I just gave all of the pieces of me like piles of paper, knowing He would catch each page, each issue while I stood there overwhelmed with it all.
I trust you, Father – all of me trusts you with everything.
Yes – I believe Him like that. I trust Him like that.
“This God—his way is perfect; the word of the LORD proves true; he is a shield for all those who take refuge in him.” (Samuel 22:31)
That trust has been a refuge. His shield has protected me.
And when I had trouble learning something new, believing something new, He sent friends to encourage me – and they told me stories of His words working in their lives. He knew I needed that – to see His word walked out by. Because I was trying to believe His word, He sent me people to encourage me.
“You use steel to sharpen steel,
and one friend sharpens another”(Proverbs 27:17)
Sometimes, like when I knit, I constantly have to remind myself of the directions. Yep, I lose confidence. I know I make mistakes. Sometimes I just plain forget – and need reminding.
“Let the Word of Christ—the Message—have the run of the house. Give it plenty of room in your lives. Instruct and direct one another using good common sense. And sing, sing your hearts out to God! Let every detail in your lives—words, actions, whatever—be done in the name of the Master, Jesus, thanking God the Father every step of the way” (Col 3:16-17).
Giving His words the run of the house of my soul – that is a trust issue – a believe issue.
Are you giving Him the run of the house of your soul?
Do you believe like that?