My husband said quietly, “If you’re still talking about it, you haven’t forgiven it.” Forgiveness deletes stories.
I realized these hurts that I carry around were like cheap trophies boasting of no great win. War wounds continually picked at couldn’t heal, wounds not of nobleness and courage but of weakness and loss. Not a fireside story of inspiration. Why did I keep telling the hurt stories? The injustice stories?
. . . because I wanted resolution, restoration, justice
But forgiveness is not about resolution. It is about letting go, and that means to stop talking about it – unless it is a redemption story, a ministry story, a where-God-took-me-after-forgiveness story to teach others about forgiveness.
God shows us how to forgive. He shows us forgiveness throws sins into unretrievable places.
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He “ throw(s) them into the depths of the ocean!” (Micah 7:19)
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“as far as the east is from the west, “ (Psalms 103:12)
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“behind your back“ (Isaiah 38:17)
He WANTS to “remember(s) your sins NO MORE” (Isaiah 43:25). He does not retell how you have slighted Him. He sent His son to build that bridge of forgiveness to Him. He built it on the cross: “Behold, the Lamb of God, who takes away the sin of the world!” (John 1:29).
Today, I walked away from the offense, the hurt. Crossed the bridge of forgiveness into a place of blessing, green pastures, milk and honey, shade, streams of living water, peace. The hurt stories and the injustice tales couldn’t follow me across that bridge – and I couldn’t carry them across. If I wanted to get to that place on the other side, I had to drop, fling or just set those stories and tales down.
Across the bridge of forgiveness, God will heal me, strengthen me – and the stories I tell will change, transformed by my forgiveness, my setting down.
Are you still talking about it?
Do you need to hit the delete button of your story collection?
I was finally able to forgive for a terrible wrong a few years ago, and it was instant peace. It just washed over me, and I felt so free. I will never forget, but I was able to let go of the bitterness and constant anger I carried every day.
Has your story changed? From a victim-story to an overcoming story? That bitterness and anger is like porcupine needles on my spirit – and forgiveness – well, those needles just drop off, stop pricking and hurting, don’t they! I know what that feels like – yet, sometimes, other hurts bring those porcupine needles back – and I have to remind myself to let go – to let God change the story to an over-coming story. Thanks so much for sharing hour heart!
I started reading this and thinking about a story I shared with a middle school girl yesterday. A story about a humiliating, betraying situation that happened to me in middle school. I felt somewhat guilty for remembering it so well, but had explained to her, those negative feelings left long ago. And when I see the “friend” there is kindness between both. I used the story in hopes that she would see you can learn from these experiences how to read people, but you can move forward from it and not let the hurt and anger linger. Of course as I started reading this, I thought “should I delete that story completely?” But it does fall in a couple of those categories above
Thanks for another wonderful post – and you are so right, forgiveness usually isn’t instant, but it is a decision and sometimes, boy, we have to work at it for awhile.
Smiles!
Lailani, when we use those stories as over-coming stories – those are how God reshapes those stories – just like you did. But when I use those stories to reaffirm victim-status – that’s when I need to hit the delete button and cross that bridge to forgiveness. That’s when our stories change to overcoming stories. What a wonderful example of that you provided. Looks like you lent her a hand to pull her over that bridge! Thanks for sharing your story!
It doesn’t hurt, but I do tell the story because it hurt so much at the time. I say that I have forgiven, but I have been questioning it lately. Thank you for your post today…like everything else I’ve heard lately, it was needed.
Danae, I have had to take a good hard look at myself. I say I have forgiven some stories – and there are plenty of overcoming stories, but there are new stories, victim stories I found myself telling – and the hurt bubbles up just as fresh – and I realize that I am not telling the story in an overcoming way but a victim way – a before-the-bridge-of-forgiveness way. And, I am ashamed, humbled that my forgiveness was just “words” (logos) not alive(rama). I am setting those stories in my life down. I am not retelling, waiting for someone to fix it, waiting for justice and resolution. I am walking across that bridge – and letting God reshape that story – and then one day, He will put it back on the bookshelf of my heart – for me to retell as an overcoming story, as an encouragment story.
I always say that when you can think about or tell a story and it doesn’t hurt anymore, then you know that you’ve forgiven and are healed. It’s almost like the event happened to someone else, and you are watching a movie…hmmm…I hope someone beautiful is playing me… ;D
Is it because the issue has been resolved – that it’s like it happened to someone else? That you finished the story on an over-coming ending? It’s almost like I need to stop telling the story because it isn’t finished until the ending has changed – and it doesn’t change if you just recount the hurt or just wait for “justice” – resolution. It changes we you have overcome the hurt through forgiveness – and suddenly, the story is like that movie you talk about – that has an ending that grows beyond the hurt. I love your analogy.
I never tell a story until it has been resolved. It feels like I’m telling on someone. Even after forgiveness resolution, I ask myself, “Am I recounting this story to make others feel better about me? or am I recounting this story to help others be better?” I don’t want to use my sordid past to spin a good story, but I’d rather reluctantly share what God has done for me and in me in order to humbly help someone else to a higher place.
Sometimes we need to talk about the stories in order to purge them. But then… stop talking about it and hand it over to God to heal us and believe that He will resolve it in whatever way it should be resolved. Our is not for the judgment but for the forgiveness. I liked this post very much.
ML – how I needed this today! Yes, I need to use the delete button in certain areas of my life, with certain people. I hit rewind and play too often, scrutinizing the “play” over and over again.
What wise words from your hubby. So true.
I have stories and situations I bring to God, over and over. Though I’m getting better about not gossiping/complaining to other people, God hears it in my prayer and conversations with Him. He must be weary of hearing my same hurt comments and words about something I’ve “forgiven” of someone.
Thank you for this reminder to let go – delete.
Beautiful pictures, too. Love your blog, just love it.
Oh Maryleigh! This is THE BEST ONE YET (I say that about them all, huh?). But this is such a wonderful way of saying “forgive and let go.” I always cringe when I hear someone say, “Well, I may forget them but I’ll never forget what they did” – never realizing that this means they haven’t forgiven! I love how you said this. I had so many stories to delete. It changed so many things in my life!
I didn’t know those other two scriptures about forgiveness.
I’ve bookmarked this for further reading tonight.
Thanks for linking up at Ann’s today.
By God’s grace…I am talking about it…less and less…and the stories I tell…have more beauty to them.
Excellent post…very good reminders…
Blessings~
I have a hard time letting go, but this post helps me frame it in a new perspective. I love the idea of crossing over the bridge.
Great post…I have been telling a story over and over lately but it involves healing and restoration. i don’t have any pain involved with the telling and that is how I knew I was ready to share the testimony.
Happy wordfilled Wednesday!
joy & blessings,
Alida
This is truth… may we all forgive with the same grace and love that we have received from the Lord….
hmmmmm…..girlfriend we are on the same page…just finished my devo for next month on guess what??? FORGIVENESS…it’s been on my mind..what a timely post this was! Letting go and Letting God…I’ll be digging deeper in this Word!
xoxo lori
Oh Sister, forgiveness has been one of those bridges that I have had to cross many times. It is a theme that often comes up in our home.
God help us all love the way He loves.
Thank you for sharing your heart with us.
Love,
b
oh, it takes such strength to walk away from those stories. but funny, how liberating the effort… thank you for this, friend.
Good words. There are some stories I need to delete.
This is really good. I love the idea of overcoming stories or victim stories. What is your goal when you remember those past hurts? To show how God brought you through or to win some sort of compassion from others or guilt to the offender. Great thing to think about when a past hurt tries to come back to your mind and heart.
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